this

another job bites the dust.

is it my fault that i have a college education

and i am applying for entry level work.

Sooooo sorry.

Like i have plenty of options all around me.

Thanks, lets add a bit more salt to my $60, 000 wound.

yes

I have no energy to do anything but watch television.

the chaos

Its crunch time.

Like really, its down to the wire.

I leave on Sunday with my dad and chris will be following.

I stilll have so much stuff to do but have little time.

I am working everyday while also trying to find time to pack.

I just got home.

I dont want to pack anything and I guess I will just have to wake up early.

I am trying to purge things but i am running out of spaces to put the things i will be purging.

I need a place to come pick my purged things up.

what

what goes up,

must come down.

but its waaaaaaay chill when its over!

I am awake

Am i back?

I have no idea. where did i even start from. I dont even know if this is where i want to be.

What is right for me? How do I know? Am i supposed to feel it somewhere or i just read about it.

25 days

its all over.

everything.

a new start.

finally.

muchos amigos...no

i think i dislike fifty percent of my friends.

yes, i think that is about right.

luckily i am moving soon at an unknown date and time and will lose track of them.

I asked a few friends that i do like this question:

"whats worse, being in tucson and wondering why no one returns your calls or wants to hang out anymore, avoiding places so you dont run into anyone because the level of awkwardness is out of control OR leaving to a city where you know ONE person and having to start all over again?"

most say the latter.

i am sad that some friends say that they are too busy but then you find out they are always with the people that don't talk to you anymore.

its a bummer and it has become quite clear that you really cant trust anyone and should never expect more than a handshake.